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The title of this post is also the title of an album by HEM. It’s kinda old but it’s good, especially the song Half Acre.
Anyways, I’m back at school and my schedule is pretty intense but also awesome, and I love my classes and yes I am a hopeless nerd thankyouverymuch.
Also, I have the same length stride as my Physics prof. In case you wanted to know that.
Now I have much reading to do and so I leave thee, with naught but a picture to annoy thee.
Let’s take a break and be serious here for a minute.
I have a bone to pick with life. It goes like this.
I don’t want time to ever be something I’m just trying to pass. Get it? Like, I’m tired of thinking, “Only X more hours and today is OVER.” Those X hours have been WASTED. Lost. Uncool, dudes.
I have kinda made a promise to myself that if I find myself in that situation, I’ll change it. Then comes college. To be honest, I’m spending a lot of time just trying to get through X hours faster. Trying to make it to such and such a break. And it’s already November? I mean really! Something is wrong with that picture.
So I’m trying to figure out how to change it. Trying to figure out if it’s my mindset…my activities…something I AM doing or something I’m NOT doing and should… in order to fix this funk. Life is way. too. short. For reals.
If I figure out the magic answer, I’ll let you know. And no, I’m not quitting college, growing my hair out, and living like a gypsy with a guitar. Well yes about the hair part. But no to the other ones. It’s just bothering me how much I’m thinking, “I just have to get through this semester.” I don’t want to have to “get through” anything, ever…
Anyways. This is also to say, I…………am getting back into photography. Slowly. Gonna get me a tripod again, and start taking pictures again instead of leaving the ideas stuck in my head. And this also means that as I start my second Flickr account… I’m going to unveil my first. It’s been long enough, I’m emotionally detached enough to let anyone see it now. Keep in mind, this was the first time I had ever done anything like this, the first time I’d actually used art to express myself, and it was heady and it was exciting. And it put me in strange moods. It was like…working out knots in muscles that had been there for so many years. I revisited a lot of bad memories, and that’s probably why the pictures tend to be a bit depressing at times. But it was good for me, it was necessary, it gave me the zoned feeling I used to get when I’d finish a chapter.
And that’s pretty awesome.
And the weekend rolls around again! I just got off a skype call with my family, mostly with my little sister. She’s getting old, it’s not fair! She can hang a spoon on her nose and make an old man face and curl her tongue in the WEIRDEST way…but she can’t do the fishy face and I can so ha! I hold onto Big Sister Status any way I can…
I’m a little bit drowning in homework right now, but I’m thinking of changing majors to Unfocused Procrastination. I mean, I’ve made some progress today already. Got exams coming up I’ve reviewed for… got papers due I’m at least…thinking about… Haha, no worries.
So this is the first post since I went to and returned from Waco, TX, namely Baylor University. I learned a lot at that conference:
- My school needs swings hanging from all the trees too.
- My school really does look like Baptists built it.
- My fellow students are waaaay higher quality students than those at Baylor… For the most part, they were a disrespectful bunch. A sad disconnect between the speeches of the really admirable President and the people on the ground floor.
- I really can’t take much in auditorially at all…
- Super 8 is not a nice place.
- The Patriot is a good movie.
- If you dare to root for the Cardinals in the big game, YOU WILL BE LYNCHED WITHOUT DELAY.
- It’s good to see old friends, even if it means playing a little hooky.
- I’m surrounded by geniuses, sheesh. And hardly a math brain among them. Black sheep, black sheep…
- Missing 2-3 days of classes is hard to catch up on.
I didn’t MEAN to fall off the face of the earth! The past couple weeks have been rough… But I am back! By which of course I mean I am procrastinating! There is absolutely nooooo stuff I should be doing right now!
So I went home for Fall Break last weekend. We left Wednesday afternoon after class and made it in 8 hours flat. Yeah, we stopped like a total of 3 times for 5 minutes each… Actually it went pretty well! I reaaaallyyy missed driving. Got my hands on a steering wheel, and…yeaaaaaahhh. Bwahaha.
It messed with my head to be home…”home”…at home? See, within a few weeks of coming to school, I felt like IT became home, and my incredibly wonderful absolute GEMS of roommates (no sarcasm!) were like family. And then I went…uh, home? And I kinda like my house. And my dog. And having a car to drive fast (if Dad’s reading this, by that I mean “fast” as in “five under the speed limit”… riiiiiiight!). And my brother who is not too scaredy-cat to sing with me no more. And my sister who plays piano like nobody’s business at only 12. And my other sister who plays soccer and creams the opponent. And my dog. Did I mention my dog? Soooo cute. See look.
I was definitely NOT ready to come back to school and work and stresssssss. Mucho stress-o, let me tell you. I haven’t been blogging because I’ve been miserable! Nothing, nothing, nothing has been awesome! That’s saying something. I have a project in a hard class… and it’s literally been on my mind day and night, every minute, just killing me! But it’s due tomorrow, so whether we’re ready or not, it’s about to be over… It’s rough on me not having a minute to myself without feeling guilty. I’m such a miser for free time now, it’s such a commodity. That’s me, huddled in the corner, clutching a free five minutes with gnarly talons of hands, rocking back and forth chanting, “Coffee! Coffee! Coffee!”
If anyone asks, I’ve quit coffee. Mmhmmm. In spirit anyways. I mean well. It’s the thought that counts, right?
But maybe all I needed really was some contraband caffeine and 20 minutes on my guitar? Because that’s what I just did and I feel better… for now anyways! The world may come to an end at 9am tomorrow, but at least I’ve got a few minutes now!
What you don’t know is that I’ve spent all my weekend doing accursed chemistry homework… Scratch that, a short break to do engineering homework, and another short break for German. This is because the Honors class is leaving on Wednesday to go to Waco, Texas and attend a big ol’ conference. Huzzah long drives! Huzzah dress clothes! Huzzah lectures and getting lost on a big campus! (sarcasm) Huzzah staying in a hotel room with only one other person! (not sarcasm) Huzzah 15 passenger vans filled with loopy smart people! (may or may not be sarcasm…)
Anyways. I’ve been productive. And now I am tired. And going to take a nap. Which is awesome. Naps are for sissies, but awesome sissies. I’m nothing if not inconsistent!
Hullo hullo hullo, what’s all this?
Well the fam has just taken off again in the fam-mobile (minivan…) after coming down here to school to see me. Which was rather nice, actually. Crazy to see meine Geschwister again, and nice to see mein Eltern as well. My mommy bought me stuff (mommies are nice that way haha!) and my daddy fixed…my…fridge… THAT was exciting! What will be craziER will be when I get home for Fall Break in roughly two weeks and get to see how the household has been changing without me! I hadn’t realized how independent I’m getting used to being really. But that was fun.
I stuck these whales on my door. I named the pink one Maurice. I like that name. And the blue one, not surprisingly, is named…Phil. I name everything Phil, you know. Phil is a bit sarcastic at time, I’m afraid. The speech bubbles change often, I make them out of Sticky Notes!
A lot of stuff has gone on, and mainly I am exhausted… I’m working out this whole college thing, and making a lot of decisions. Things like, no more Honors community after this… things like, holy moly am I in the right major or WHAT… things like, I need to get a job at Christmas break… things like, papers and the people who grade them can kinda ruin your life sometimes… things like, nobody has power over me with an impossible standard unless I let them… I find out lots of stuff about me. Like apparently I do much better on my chem homework if I get my Usher on. Wow I sound like a dork!
Later this evening I’m going to my German teacher’s house and we’re all making German foods. I’m making…potatoes… Pretty hard to mess those up, right?
- Sister sleepovers.
- Roommates watching Chopped on a laptop, keeping up a running commentary about “French,” “Boston,” “Japanese,” and “the other one.” These people have names I’m sure, but we don’t know them. Also I want to try sardines sometime…
- Food from home. Aaaahahahahaha. FOOD FROM HOME.
- Realizing that like a month and a half later, this whole campus is my home and all my friends and I have inside jokes just like I have with my siblings…
- Upside-down fridge handles.
- Leopard-print duct tape and a crafty mom. Nanananana boo boo.
- Tea. (not so awesome: plumbing problems, yaaaay freshman dorms!
Another week done got away from me! Yaaaay weekend! Fridays are again my favorite day! It’s pretty much the awesomest thing to know I get to live here for like four years. I think about it all the time, hanging out in the coffee shop, working in the engineering lab, running into friends all over campus… I realized my dorm isn’t home per se–I don’t actually do much more than sleep there–but the whole campus is my home. So awesome. 🙂
Quick story: Someone (art major probably) made two sculptures shaped like rubber ducks and put them by a fountain on campus. We were walking by and just so happened to be talking about something G.K. Chesterton would call “Truth standing on her head.” Of course we call it a “pair-o’-ducks!” Say it fast enough, look up the GKC quote, you’ll figure it out, haha.